Friendship, explaining further

You know in the last post, I said I had no friends, I hate them, and in the one before it I said that I once chilled with my friends and talked frankly and had fun, well, this is confusing isn't it 

     What I meant to say is that this was the ultimate life experience, I did live with them for years, saw their faces everyday in school, and I've always tried to convince myself that I like them, and every time  we go in the right way, they act silly later and act as dumb heads , they create prblems from nowhere, they didn't trust me, I made my biggest mistake 

         3 years ago, I was strict, I mean I had my own way of living and style, I was well mannered, both my brothers are loved from their classmates , but me, I had to face everything , in 6th grade a boy joined, he seemed to be alright, but he wasn't, he was the worst devil soul I've ever seen, he turned all the good ones into bad ones, I was foolish, and step by step, I became even more bad than I thought, I can handle things, but for all these things happening to me, I wish that I beat the hell out of his face, but still, he's not only evil, he's tough too, like my life

      I left my style and domination over some of my friends go away , and I am human and I make mistakes...👎👎👎👎