Happy new year :( 😥😞

Happy new year everybody, I am really happy for everyone who feels that 2014 is going to be his/her second chance, but for me:

    I feel that I am getting into a more dark and a longer and deeper hole, I was out today, a boring family hangout, I saw and heard a lot of young guys shouting, screaming, laughing and expressing their feelings loudly, they were really happy, but I was probably the only one who didn't even smile, I was one of those people who stood by and watched how everything goes, but I was the only one who didn't smile, I thought this was normal, I thought that the people I see are different and there are a lot of people out there who look like me, act like me, and probably live like me, but I guess, that I was wrong, I am an extremely abnormal person, I didn't feel that there is even a new year, I feel that I am just supposed to keep my mouth shut, and go on with my life that I hate, and also, I am still being pushed to insanity by my parents, I am going to fell down really hard one day, and I may never rise.

     Anyway,

 Happy new year everybody

Merry Christmas 

Have fun 

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