I need to escape
Now Sunday 5 January 2014 3:34 am I've realized that there will be no one to support me, there will be no one to stand beside me, no one will clap for me when I am in the prom, I have cried a lot today, I always wanted to be number 1, but It became a dream, then, a nightmare...
Today I've seen my brothers prom footage it was more than 5 or 6 months ago, I've seen and heard all the cheers and laughs, I've monitored all the sweat smiles on all of the faces there, and then at that moment: I was 100% sure that when I am going to give a short speech I will never hear all these shouts and screams, because there is no one who would dare to clap for someone like me, it's like something unimaginable, something ex terrestrial, that's why I would like to run away, and I would also be really happy to stay for my whole life, a polite and a silent person in a sort of a 'dead' audience, I'll just watch and wish happy lives for all those who I love and who I hate, everyone is 'horrible' and I am fighting, alone.
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